Wishlist: Self-Reflexivity

"If you give, you begin to give
You get the world, you get the world.
If you give, you begin to live."-DMB

Wishlist: Self-Reflexivity

I only wanted to give all that I had so that once
I would be enough-
But Me does not equal We,
and time mocks me as it continues as my
infinity of inadequacy
Yet I wanted to give,
So,

When I continue to give-to you
and to him, her and to you and then also to You
I forget to live- Like I have forgotten in the past.
As I have forgotten my past.

Denying my Self,
Lying to myself-
As I was trying to be someone else
for you, and You, and the rest of Them too.

So you all keep on taking
Pieces of me- chipping away
as I am slipping away.
While I am blindly forsaking my needs- instead I continue making
an identity from the image reflected back from your vacant gestures.

Do you see the Irony?
You All have all of Me-
So I should remain an empty vessel, lonely, an identity formed-
of the Nothing which is everything that has been reciprocated
for what I give--
for what I live.

"You might die trying.
Oh, you might die trying.
Yeah, you might die trying."-DMB