Monday, May 21, 2007

(Part 2) The More Things Change, The More They Stay The Same...

Late Night Narcissistic Google Searching May Offer Anectotal Thesis Help...

Volume XV Issue 2 March 13, 2003


Sexual Liberation on Campus

Amherst’s views on sexuality range from liberating openness to traditional double standards.

By Gail Zuckerwise


In a small institution such as Amherst, individual personalities are unavoidably noticed, and ideas, whether pre-conceived or resulting, have ways of attaching themselves to individuals. Our college environment creates a society in which people generally feel a level of comfort, for faces are familiar and recognition of people and surroundings provides for a certain intimacy. However, looking in on this world, it seems as though the community has taken precedence over these distinct characters, and it becomes more and more difficult to differentiate the individual from the whole. Foucault writes about sexuality as a key element in the analysis of these people.

Relating Foucault’s writings on the deployment of sexuality to that of the Amherst community, it is clear that the students have devoted a large effort to breaking free from some of these generalizations while continuing to embrace others. Amherst is an institution that prides itself on its diverse and accepting student body. A member of this community is content to be seen as an independent entity interacting in a largely diverse population.

However, there are many similarities among the students that are overlooked; similarities in behavior, perception, and attitude that constitute a large part of the Amherst self as a collective unit. In his discussion on the deployment of sexuality, Foucault talks of “transforming sex into a discourse.” This is illustrated in many ways through interaction between people in relation to gender. Communication between and among males and females in relation to sex and sexuality is an extremely defining and regulating aspect of the student body. The force behind this is the power that sex has come to yield. Foucault writes of the importance of the “multiplication of discourses concerning sex in the field of exercise of power itself: and incitement to speak about it, and to do so more and more; a determination on the part of the agencies of power to hear it spoken about, and to cause it to speak through explicit articulation and endlessly accumulated detail”. This exponential growth in openness and acceptance of sexual discourse is easily noticed at Amherst and has become a major socially defining aspect of many individuals among their peers.

Recently, there have been two events that perfectly exemplify the importance of sex to the Amherst Community. An orgasm workshop was openly advertised in many forums, tempting students with promises of skills to get, give, and enhance orgasms. Whereas Foucault writes of sex’s power through desire as a way of regulation and discipline, at this liberal arts institution, we have come to embrace liberation through sexuality. Stoler comments on Foucault’s interest in “the norm that circulates between the processes of disciplining and regularization” and how these “articulate the individual and the population”. Although Foucault sees a different norm than that of the Amherst students, his reasoning still applies in terms of establishing a convention. This contrast is important in identifying the individuals that make up this community, for it proves their desire to attain freedom through actions that were once condemned.

Another example was Amherst’s rendition of the Vagina Monologues. Students preformed in front of their peers to express the value of femininity, as well as the love for pleasure seeking and self-satisfaction. “The value of the Vagina Monologues goes beyond a past full of negative attitudes. It offers a personal, grounded in the body way of moving toward the future,” according to Gloria Steinman. Not only does this go beyond the prior constraints of sexuality, but it allows for the individual to be accepted and praised for further self-determining actions. A flier for the production explains, “Females celebrating their vaginas are another step towards women taking control of their bodies.” It is apparent that sexuality has become a major influence on the concept of the self at Amherst, for it is one way in which people express comfort with themselves and others.

While sexuality has become liberating for many people here, it also maintains its constraining properties in many senses. This can be understood through comparison to Stoler’s discussion of colonialism, which she argues “has taken the categories of “colonizer” and “colonized” as givens, rather than as constructions that need to be explained. Despite our attempts to redefine sexuality as an equalizing agent between genders and their needs and acquisitions, there are still many instances where sexual encounters become centered on the idea of the pursuer and the pursued. Our ability to make these clear distinctions shows that there is still a ways to go until individuals can escape from society’s rigid definitions. This becomes important when we notice its lingering effects on the differentiation between norms among gender. An appropriate example is the double standard that continues to exist concerning sexual behavior among males and females.

While we pride ourselves on our liberal attitudes towards gender relations, as seen by the example of the campus events, there are still certain conventions that cannot be escaped. This is clear when listening to conversations on the topic among friends or hearing others speak of reputations that are based on sexual actions. Sexual behavior is a large contributor to reputation and consequently is largely used to create a desired persona or to characterize another. It is clear that guys who are sexually involved with many girls are viewed as “players,” while girls who become involved with multiple guys are “sluts.” It is interesting to try to rationalize these views, for they are so unfounded, yet this contradiction is one convention that even liberal Amherst students cannot eliminate when defining themselves.

“We must not think that by saying yes to sex, one says no to power; on the contrary, it is the agency of sex that we must break away from, if we aim…to counter the grips of power with the claims of bodies, pleasures, and knowledges, in their multiplicity and their possibility of resistance”.

Using sexuality to help define oneself is reasonable, but it will only be effective when each individual understands the importance of liberating himself from its convention and personally defining his interpretation of the deployment of sexuality. Until we are able to break free from society’s pre-conceived notions of sex, it remains an unstable way of self-definition, for outside influences inhibit the self-defining process.

Our attempts at liberalizing sexuality show our determination to use sexual discourse to our advantage in terms of establishing the individual, and through these efforts, Amherst individuals will continue to achieve higher freedom of self-expression and self-creation.

Gail Zuckerwise ’05 is a Staff Writer for The Indicator.


Monday, May 21



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Saturday, May 19, 2007

The More Things Change, The More They Stay The Same...

I used to believe:
I Know I Knew You
Once upon a while ago.
I Think I Thought:
I know I knew I loved you
But, I then,
I now think:
I’ll never know.

When I would sleep:
I used to smile all night,
From the taste of the sweetest dreams.
I’d wake up to the sound of an accumulating past,
Rife with:
Nothing here, was there
nor never, ever as it seems.

So I watched the days fly by,
Confused by the paradox of frozen moments in time and space.
I thought:
I’ll have to run fast to catch the past,
As icicles melted into tears, streaming down my face.

I still believe in us together
(If we were even us back then)
When I still think:
I know I love you,
Like I did, I still think now:
I will always love you, again.

As I’m here wishing, that you’re sleeping
there, upon my shooting star:
That a past so dear and a future so near
Will never appear that far.

That new daylights may open your eyes
And finally you will see:
There will always already be and been
A choice to choose
To lose
ourselves in we.

Let Go Lightly

http://maps.google.nl/maps?q=Houtmankade+91,+1013+Amsterdam,+Amsterdam+(Noord-Holland)&sll=52.387092,4.884258&sspn=0.006339,0.021329&ie=UTF8&z=16&iwloc=addr&om=1

my new home

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Home Again

…And just as quickly everything can change- as drastically as the first time I stepped outside and felt that I was home. The day I reached into my pocket and knew that I would find tinted yellow glasses, reminding me of a summer past that really hasn’t even left. I should have known right then. I was at the junction of two lives, as the bikes and trams and buses zoomed past, threatening to take at least ten times as many lives away. If I had reached into my other pocket, I would have found another pair of glasses. Red ones maybe, or blue. They probably would have been purple, and at the time I did not think to check, but now I know I knew. I know that I would let my hand gently graze my side to make sure they were there many times throughout each day (and I did)- as I glided and rolled through my golden world.

…And I wasn’t crying. Always- No, I wasn’t always crying. It rains a lot here. I like the rain- I love every drop on the yellow lenses that make golden globes that sparkle over my golden city. I love that it is always raining- it hides that I am always crying. Don’t look in my eyes- You can’t see them to read if I’m smiling.
Or know that I am lying…

…And everything gets so blurred, as the water begins running down the lenses, streaming down my face, and neck. I can’t see anything, and my city always disappears; my whole world just swirls around and away, and that is when, every time, one hand will graze my pocket in a perfunctory sweep, as my other hand listlessly, dutifully holds my glasses securely in place, fighting a fear of war to be waged against myself. My demons mock me, as I feel the heat rise inside; blood rushes to the surface of my skin. The other lenses were red, and they are superimposed on my purity. The cut is made. It is deeper this time. I am burned, and it is hotter this time. Sliced once more. Scalded. My blood is fresh, and it looks orange. The fire is orange, and the fresh burns blister up, fast, and orange. Everything is orange- and my body is screaming in agony…yet, I laugh, because in spite of it all, orange is my second favorite color- and it really is the little things…

… I am feeling smaller…and colors drain…angled, glasses slide: red on the side, to orange; then yellow offers a kaleidoscopic euphoria, into the canal…the canals are my favorite part, and I am back home.

Hold on Tightly...Let go Lightly

"Some people walk into your life and quickly go. Some people walk into your life and leave footprints on your heart, and you are never the same"

I would change the second line to read: ˆsome people walk into your life, take a piece of your heart, and share a part of their soul"

Now, to the quandary of the moment: "Hold on tightly; Let go lightly"- I had been reading this as two phrases regarding the same relationship/memory. I realized tonight that they are almost oposite sides of a spectrum of "good" that we accumulate throughout life - there are certain people who may "leave footprints" (whether good or bad) and these are enough for the necessary moments of nostalgia that keep all the chaotic fragments connected. Basically, when the time comes to let go, do it with the eloquence, and mutual respect that the situation warrants, and know what to expect on both ends and how to move forward.
Other people don't pass through to leave footprins, but they stay and fundementally change you- they give you something (not "transient" footprints that may (likely) fade over time, but imprints that last) as they simultaneously take a part of you- These people are the precious few, for whom "holding on tightly" is not only important in terms of fearing loss, but essential in that they have become part of you, significantly contributing to your own self-identification and self-appreciation as well as the love for the other.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Double Entendre: Metaphor for a Missing Moment

GOTTA CUT AWAY
CLEAR AWAY

Dichotomy?/irony?/cliché?

QUESTION: Why the T?

Because I'm so "vein"

Because I go both ways

For the "Sweet up and Down"

Because it hurts me too

For the sake of words like "caustic" and "mordant"

To make orange (or ruin yellow)

Cut It Out: to end with a T? what do I want?

I am not indifferent

Friday, May 04, 2007

Self-Perplexivity of relational complexity

“Be not disturbed at being misunderstood; be disturbed rather at not being understanding”

“People who say it cannot be done should not interrupt those who are doing it.”

“Deal with the faults of others as gently as with your own”

“The fire you kindle for your enemy often burns yourself more than them”

“Do not remove a fly from your friends's forehead with a hatchet”

“He who strikes the first blow admits he's lost the argument”

Everybody lies, but it doesn't matter because nobody listens.
Nick Diamos

Love is not enough. It must be the foundation, the cornerstone - but not the complete structure. It is much too pliable, too yielding.
Bette Davis (1908 - 1989)

There's a lot to be said for self-delusionment when it comes to matters of the heart.
Diane Frolov and Andrew Schneider

There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
Friedrich Nietzsche (1844 - 1900), "On Reading and Writing"

Love is the triumph of imagination over intelligence.
H. L. Mencken (1880 - 1956)

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

What I learned from Queen's day: Self-Reflexivity (Part 2)



So overlooked, so underrated
Too overwhelming, too degrading
self-indugent Narcissism?
collective perpetuation of Pessimism




Spreading yourSelf through your agressions:
Inhibitions, insecurities
invade
Your impressions
Your expressions

Where's the confusion?
No need for exaggeration!
Reveal the illusion-
Cut the ego masterbation

As it Stands now,
You need to sit still!
So the bullshit has to stop
And you need to fucking chill